interj. the ability to watch oneself purposefully begin what we know must worsen before it betters; a choice against our immediate interests, stark against the shadow of Nature (used especially when looking down at the odds and laughing)
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eclipse.
in hindsight, almost none of the words i wrote during him were beautiful. i think of him as an eclipse as some suspension of time where (arrogant in his impenetrability, preoccupied by his victory, basking in the surety of my retention even as i flared from every edge) he forgot: even stifled, warmth can be sensed. light seeks light. impermanent by definition, his incredulousness was delicious as his last sliver slipped back into the blackness - as he began to wane as i broke as i rose
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ATLONGLAST
all of the resentment is gone.
trickled out the holes in my heart
shaped
colander,
the one sitting silent now in my mothers sink,
leaving only air-dried, starchy, sticky love
the kind that
stands up on it’s own
has a bit of back
bone,
the kind that’s
known
around town, eyes that meet, hat tips;
the kind that
brims.
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apostrophe
you swooped in
stole some part of the heart of me
leaving behind a stitch, a scar,
a patch; pieces indelibly swiped.today everyone knows me as my eighty percent and oh
how i’ve simmered at the thought
aggravated at you being the understood, the generally accepted;
the catch in my breath, the white space.you’re the placard,
the place-card;
in me,
everyone knows what you signify.but while for so long i’ve seen you as a pause,
i’m suddenly realizing before you came along i was pieces;
bits
scattered and gapped and uncertain.
thanks to you, i’m changed
formed into a familiarity
granted an ease
opened up by being sewn shut.
your goal was never my contraction,
i see that now.
you stuck around
invested in me
visibly
permanently
you’re all that has ever held me together.
musée 